Getting Back on Track
Being a mom is one of the most rewarding jobs you can have. I also feel like it is one of the most demanding jobs as well. I don’t know any other job where you’re “on call” 24/7. It’s also really easy to get off track of taking care of not only your physical self but your spiritual self as well. If I’m being honest, my spiritual self has really been on the back burner. I give the excuse that I don’t have time to read my Bible or do a devotional. But at the end of the day, once Everly has gone to bed I can spend an hour or more scrolling Instagram, watching videos on Youtube or watching two or maybe even three episodes of Sugar Rush on Netflix. The result of doing this has started to effect me. Not majorly on an outward appearance. I’m still a positive, happy person, but spiritual I can tell 100% I am not where I should be. It’s hard to describe, but I feel an emptiness. I may be happy, but I’m not as happy as I can be.
It can be easy to put the blame for this on something or someone else, but it’s solely my fault. Like I mentioned earlier, if I can spend an hour mindlessly scrolling through Instagram, I have absolutely no excuse not to intentionally read my Bible for that hour.
I’ve been through seasons like this before where I’ll study the Word every day, but then somewhere along the way I slip away. I slowly start putting that precious time with the Lord closer and closer to the bottom of my list. I don’t like this cycle, and I never intentionally do it. But I’ve been thinking about how much more important it is to stay in the Word now that I have Everly. Whether we like it or not, our kids look up to us. They are always watching and listening. I want to set a good example for Everly. I don’t want her growing up seeing me putting God in the back burner of my life. I want her to see that no matter how hectic of a day, her mom always made sure to include God. Even if that meant she read her Bible for 5 minutes or had to listen to an audio version as she cooked, cleaned, or drove to the store. I want her to know the importance of including God in your everyday life. He should always come first. You can never be too busy for God.
So, starting today, God will be first. Instead of getting up and immediately checking social media, I will read the Word. If I need to wake up earlier to get that time in, that is what I will do.
“All Scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness, that the man of God may be complete, thoroughly equipped for every good work.”
II Timothy 3:16-17 NKJV