“And I, I don’t want to leave a legacy
I don’t care if they remember me
And I, I’ve only got one life to live
I’ll let every second point to Him
This is the chorus of the song “Only Jesus” by Casting Crowns. It came out in 2018, but I heard it for the first time a few days ago and love it!! This song really got me to thinking as well.
I feel like we all want to be remembered for something; some amazing discovery or accomplishment that changes people’s lives.
As a mom, our kids can be our world. Young kids more than likely look at their parents, and to them, we are their whole world. Listening to this song made me really stop and think about how I want Everly to see me. How I want her to remember me. Yes, I would love to be seen as a fantastic mom that never got mad, had tasty meals and snacks always prepared, and pretty much had everything in order all the time. But in the big picture, none of that is important. None of that will last. I want Everly to see a Godly wife and mother. And I want her to see Jesus through my words and actions with not only her but everyone else I come in contact with. It seems easy, right?!
Everly isn’t even a year old yet, and I’ve already failed at mirroring Jesus through my words and actions. As she’s crawling and getting into things, I’ve caught myself raising my voice and getting frustrated with her for continually messing with the shoes, chargers, or books. That moment I do and get onto her, I immediately feel convicted. One, I know that she’s in a stage of learning. She has no idea that something could hurt her or that something is dirty. Secondly, my frustration towards her at times is not a reflection of how Jesus treats us. As an adult, I still do things I know I’m not supposed to do and yet, God doesn’t get frustrated and starting yelling at us, even though we may deserve it. He’s patient with us. He doesn’t like seeing us do bad things or getting hurt. He would probably love to intervene before something bad happens to prevent us from getting hurt, but he knows we have to learn. Just like I know Everly needs to learn.
My ultimate prayer and goal is that when people see me, they see Jesus. I want my words and actions to be a reflection of my Lord and Savior.
“Be imitators of me, just as I also am of Christ.”
“The one who says he abides in Him ought himself to walk in the same manner as He walked.”
Here is the link to Casting Crowns Song “Only Jesus.”